Something is happening to me ....

Something stirred in the heavens ,HE was agitated- he had a dream and realised that there WAS something but did not quite know what..
Now the thing something did not realise was that he was a star glowing in the night sky –
A fabulous bright beaming perfect star..
Radiating light across the galaxies infinitely-
He did not know that his song could be heard – forever-
He did not know that his glorious scent filled the woods -the trees -the flowers-the waters.. the heavens.
He was so preoccupied thinking, that he never once stopped to realise just who he was ..
He only knew that there WAS something.. and it irked him incessantly. He became obsessed with this irksome nagging.
HE spoke to the other stars and they did not really understand so they suggested to something that he should talk to the sun
“Sun “, he said, “ I know there”s something ..how do I find it- what do I need -why am I agitated -what should I do?”
“Relax” said the sun
“Nothing” ,Sun reassured him –“ you need nothing… You NEED nothing..This is the answer..to realise you need nothing is to realise that you have everything .

That’s all..

Remember” , , said the wise old sun , repeating himself “you need nothing..”

“ I need nothing, I need nothing, I need nothing”
Something repeated it all the way home..
The next morning he woke up early.
Packed his bags- left a note
And set out-
quite determined to find nothing.


….” when you realise that then you have everything”..he heard suns words

Something was deterrmined- he was going to find nothing..

And so
Something started out and soon he was wandering, endlessly, endlessly - leaving no stone unturned . He was constantly searching. His mind always onto the next thing, expecting to find nothing there..or so he convinced himself..
He always found something ..but was so busy looking for nothing..that he never really had fun with the something.He scarcely looked at it. He just continued on .. dismissing the somethings as he wanted so much to discover nothing- somewhere, somehow..
Across the universe , he thrundled, in search of nothing.

One day on his travels

Something came to a bridge
.. queues of stars were waiting in a flurry of chatter an excitement on the edge-
Waiting in line to leap excitedly
over the side…
“What’s happening?” enquired something . “whats going on?’
“Oh we are joining with life”, they said..

Somethings heart began to tremble. He sensed from their joy and frolics that this was something he really could enjoy
An inner voice of excitement said” YES! YES!!”
Something climbed up onto the wall of the bridge ..many others were there and while some hesitated others leaped wildly with an incredible resounding wheeeeeeee
“Oh what fun” ..said something
And laughed and played, cajoled and teased ,as good as, if not better than the others.
Finally, they said “come on something it’s your turn..”


“Leap! “they told him “Leap and you will fly..”Something was hesitant “ but’ but….”
“To where shall I le ap “’asked something “Where am I going?”

They pointed to still deep waters way below the bridge..
Many stars all around were leaping
The air was filled with laughter and excitement, splashes and delight..
As they neared the waters Geysers of spray rose to the heavens and gushed out splashing everyone and everything in radiant drops of pure living waters..adding to the fun and laughter!
“Where is everyone going ?”asked something
“What are they doing..”

“Why ,They are realising their wishes ,” they said..” You bring your wish to the edge, jump , go thro the waters and it becomes...”
”Have you a wish ?”
“O yes!” said something ,eagerly.
“Then climb up and jump
And remember Make sure and go thro the water..”
“Where else would I possibly go.” thought something..
“If you jump surely its straight thro all the way..”
“That is the well of life”, they told him. “once you jump in and follow it, it showers the universe with life ..and lands as wishes everywhere, for everyone ..yes and opens doorways of more and more magical life”

“As wishes?’ asked something.
“Yes but you have to jump in otherwise it will not happen”… and so one by one they leaped
Down into the waters.
Something stood and watched, intrigued as the fire work display of spray danced amd cascaded all around.
“What exactly is down there?’
“O I dunno”, one star said” what it is exactly but I do know if you follow it you will have your wish..”

“Have my wish” , Something’s heart missed a beat- he was joyful

And so he jumped

Something found himself spining, spiralling, floating, drifting.
It all seemed to have slowed down and it seemed like an age since the jump..
But yet, the waters of life were still there and yes ,he was still on target..
As he drifted he saw stars pass him out and splash .He mazed at their colours, their intense focus, their bliss ,their determination, their joy..
He could read their wishes and his heart beat in anticipation of joy and fulfillment for them..
Something continued to float..
And then a thought struck him..
Their wishes were for things ..
Dreams- hopes –plans- events..places, stuff, people, emotions,
but
He wanted to find nothing..!
And began to think that the waters of life would not give him this..
Life was not nothing!!
It was something else and not what he had expected..
And his mind began to race ..
How could he go with this..
He needed control.
He needed to stop
He needed to force his way towards nothing
Not towards this something..
After all it only granted wishes of something
Not real wishes of nothing..
I should strive for nothing not this something..”


And so he thought and he thought..
And it made no sense..
Something said to himself” I am looking for nothing
They are all looking for something – wishes ! Bah..Don’t they know they need to find nothing, first
Not something.
So something cannot possibly give me my wish..
I have to find it myself..
This is silly”
Another star flew past ..”come on get your wish from the waters of life..
Dive in join with the waters..
Come on something why have you stopped orbitting?”
“Oh, have I ?”, said something
“I hadn’t noticed
Oh even so I will pause here a while and think this over..there is no hurry an besides its cosy here and I don’t have to bother much about anything..

What if all of these stars were crazy anyway- what if you went in there and it was not like out here, it was after all ,quite lazy here ..just drifting floating aimlessly..”
And so he argued to himself for a year and a day..why would he bother now it seemed like too much effort to push thro the waters surface and get splashed…
and so he remained suspened over the waters edge..debating whether to go in or not .”.will ?I wont I? will I? wont i..”

Something slept- too tired now to make up his mind- he was after all exhausted .
”It IS such an ordeal trying to make up one’s mind ,”he argued..
Days past, then weeks, then years..
Something had been out of his own orbit now for SO long, that he lost contact with his source and lacked it’s light.
He was dishevelled, dank and lustreless.
He had been repeating the same actions for so long that after a while he forgot and it just became automatic..he was lifeless, robotic, dull.
In the bleakness
Strange creatures began to grow on his surface, which was now a solidified mass of density, impenetrable by brightness, sound or feeling.
Sometimes he peeped out from under his overgrown unkempt facade and saw new stars make their way to the waters.
On seeing him some stopped. His lazy ways brushed off them and pretty soon they joined him , accepting his ways and stayed suspended, too.Some , because they lost sight of the waters, rather believing that somethings ugly mass to be it.. to be reality-
Others because it was an easy mindless option
But some choose to go by , regardless.

“Well how do you do?” asked a young star of something one day ..she had stopped by as she was curious about this ugly mass.
She felt it was odd out there alone.” It looks strange too.” she thought and felt compelled to check it out..it just did not seem quite right and there was a sad emptiness about it.
She knew it needed light and it needed it urgently .
She landed and decided to stay a while.She met with something and decided she would shine light on him to make him glow again..
Sometimes she found it very tiring and she needed to play with the passing stars to get glow from them to keep hers alive..AND also she played wit the spray as it splashed by ..

One day as she sat day dreaming looking at the splashing she said to something
“ why do you choose to just hover above the waters of life..
Why are you not stirred by the splashing?
are you not curious as to what’s there..?”

“That’s all in your head”, he said..
“Maybe” , she retorted, but the fact is, it IS in my head and because it is IN my head it exists..”
He loooked at her and huffed.
He was
Disgruntled.
“Something- Did you never have a dream ?
Were you ALWAYS this grumpy?
you are so surly sometimes and so boring..”
“Boring!! what do you mean ..
I stay here. I do not wander or jump into the waters because it is safe here..”
“SAFE!! Safe? “she said but look what is growing on you ..
Horrible yucky things
They have no color and you don’t smell too good
You don’t glow and you feel cold..
You have no song
No music
No pretty colours..
and I am fed up here..”
Something thrundled off , prattling to himself.
Little star continued to play with the splashes..
Some fell on something..
“Something?” little star asked
“Huh?” he grunted
“Something- did you never- ever have a dream..?”

Something told her how he always believed there was something but could no longer remember much about it..
He just rembered that the sun told him he needed to do something but he could not even remember what that was now.
“Oh, something!” little star giggled- “ He just meant to stop looking … and to start looking?”
“ Stop and Start!! Why, now YOU are making as much sense as God” , he frantically squeaked…
“I dunno”, little star said” but I do know I’m off out of here. To follow my dream...are you coming or not..?
I’ m off to jump in the waters “

“Why ?,” asked something.” What is there ..that is not here?
Whats in the waters? What is so special ?|”

“Nothing, ” shrugged little star.”.nothing -
Nothing”, sang little star over and over as she leaped over a mangled tuft of something unidentifiable..and hopscotched down the mossy path…
“NOTHING!” gasped something finally recalling echoes of an old excitement long forgotten..
“YUP! NOTHING.” she repeated as she blew a time clock from a dandelion-
” but it IS life and SO it makes EVERYTHING..”
“How can that be?”,sqeaked Something.
“Because once you realise that you NEED nothing you realise everything.. there is no lack..there is no NEED
Because you cannot have one without the other..
But you keep “Wanting” so you keep getting want..
Because you see nothing as something.. And something as nothing. You never see or feel just what IS”.



Something began to glow and little star was amazed at how upright and bright he looked for the first time..
“Look at the waters of life between these dandelion seeds “,she said.
“ Watch- I blow they scatter-
I tell the nothing space to bring them together and it does..
So nothing is everything..
Now you try..”
And thus they sat all that evening blowin seeds and remaking them..
The next day there was such a splash that the droplets are still falling.. and the endless ripples can still be seen and felt..



Something realised he was not one lone sum number but the sum of all numbers..

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